祝福

我总算醒觉其实我只是好胜而并不是什么的留念不舍。正如友人所说，大男人，我想我还是不能接受太多的大男人主意。 你姐也奇怪为什么你会与我分享那么私人的东西，我也说不出理由。或许真正原因只有你知道。既然你那么的情绪化而不愿分享，我也无可奈何。身为朋友，唯一能做的只有在需要的时候出现，在适当的时候离去，如此而已。这两天我的心也沉静多了，只希望你的选择可以另你放下过去，快快乐乐面对你真正的感情！祝福你！

勇气。。。

我不是你想像的那么勇敢。。。

我遗失了坚强与勇气，你捡到了吗？

搞不懂

你说我凡是都有所保留，凡是都太控制自己；
我的借口：或许是语言问题吧！
心底在想：在你面前我脑袋就是一片空白。
反复的再想想，
或许
你常把自己的那杯茶装得满满的，
我半滴都倒不进。

你说今天
是你整段路最开心的一天，
因为终于让你体验身临大雪中。

整个路程，你都提不起劲；
当初，为什么又决定这段的路呢？

真搞不懂。。。

2009 的最后一天

倒数五小时，等待新的一年到来。二零零九年对我来说是一个充满梦想的一年，十分感激我许许多多的梦想都一一实现了。或许上天对我太好了以致在最后的一星期不让事情如我所愿。或许它在告诉我是时候放手了，是时候向前看了，为自己而冲刺，不要再为不珍惜你的人浪费时间。希望明天会更好吧2010！！！

莫名其妙

快乐的曰子过得很快，不开心的曰子却过得特别的慢。
很矛盾，又想时间过得快点因不想再受痛苦的折磨，却不想过得太快因还留恋。
也不知自己在留恋什么东西，就一种莫名的感觉。

这一刻我清楚知道你永远不会是属于我的。原来我的直觉还没退化，只是一直自己在否认自己所感受的。我想新的一年，是时候该有新的开始了，告诉自己加油吧！

真的如愿以偿吗？

今年的生日，还算不错啦！
至少不是一个人的度过。有朋友的陪伴。
许了个愿望，没在当天实现，
但总算第二天少许实现吧！
虽然不知道往后会有什么的结果，
但这一刻我还总算满足了！

谢谢！

心甘情愿？

不知道
那么做
会对自己带来什么结果；
好的？
坏的？
还是会自我摧残？

只知道
现时的我
还是
心甘情愿地
等待。。。

。。。奇迹的出现。。。

开心得太早了。。。

还以为；
那一点的假象，
会是一个好的转变；
还以为，
奇迹真的出现了；
还以为，
事情开始如我所愿；

原来，
一切的一切，
只是开心得太早了。。。。

You made my day!!

That phone call of you really made my day for the whole trip. I just can't keep smiling to myself for the entire trip.

However, the aftermath of it....

彷徨。矛盾。毫无头绪。

何苦呢？


Ah...... split personality again.....

为什么？

为什么总是要烟消云散的前一刻，
却撩起那仅剩的火种？
我。累了。

不想了，可以吗？

。。。。。。

原来。。。

一直在想见到你的她我会怎样。
原来，我心里会那么的不好受。
真不敢想像我可以怎样面对；
更不敢想像到时我还在这里到吗？

最遥远的距离

世界上最遥远的距离，就是我在你面前，你却不知道我喜欢你。。。
转过头的那一刻，我不停地在问自己，到底我想要什么；
驾着那漫长的车程时，脑里无时无刻都在反问自己想怎样；
要的是你的那一声问候吗，还是要的是自讨没趣，我不知道。
我想你永远都不会知道，叫了那一盘沙拉，我并不是在减肥，
其实只是我刚用过了晚餐，没告诉你；却应了与你共度晚餐的邀请。
站在那里等待的当儿，真的有点害怕；
怕你带着你的她出现在我面前，怕我不知道该怎么面对；
更害怕的是自己的不知所措。
我很清楚地知道，我不该在奢望什么，因为在这时候我实在没那个权利去奢望。
或许对你，我们纯粹是朋友；可是你那出乎预料的问候就是让我不舍得，不舍得放手。
深深的感受到上一句话。
我，彷徨。

Shoot again....

While waiting for the Working Holiday Travel Date to come, I continued to take up jobs to buck up my 'bullets' ---> money for the TRIP. And I was lucky enough to have work with Big International Star on this shoot. Shoot was tough under hot sun and I'm totally burnt within a day. Well, can't reveal much as the project is still on editing stage. Meanwhile can only show you photos, make a wild guess......and yes, this project involve a heli shot as well, unfortunately I didn't get a chance to board on the heli =(

静静的生日

已迈入第二年了。祝我生日快乐！

almost end of the year

it's already the 10th month of the year and reviewing the resolution that had been set this year, hmmm.....i don't think i have achieve any of that. Sad to say that, UK visa is still hanging, doesn't even know whether do I stand a chance looking at the situation now; not really improve on my photography skill except that I had sucessfully bought the 50mm lens. Diving - not yet as I can't even find an activity partner that would do that together with me not to say the $$ for that whole course. As for the someone, haaa.....I think I've almost give up. Not moving forward much also from my past either. Maybe I would have to wait for someone who I'd love more than the previous relationship....and that's the hardest part....

**I thought I've found, but it seems like it's just a "mirage"....however is still confused***

Soul search?

What's on earth is happening to me? One side of me ask myself to move on, another side of me is just unwilling to accept the fact.... Seriously doesn't know where my soul have been hiding away, having hard time to look for it....

Will there ever be someone who can be my mentor, to lead me through these .... to open my hearts???

Trash OUT

Have been having a lots of indescribable feelings recently, and mood change quite swiftly. Am used to be quite sensitive and accurate on my instinct, but recently, i just can't really tell whether they failed me or not. Lots of question just clotted my mind about why people react the way they react, about life issues, about human relationships, about career, about leadership, about the right way people should be treated, about my past, about the regrets and much much more.....a friend told me that I should try once in a while to let go myself, make myself go wild so that I don't think too much....but, I'm thinking, is that one day of 'trashing out' works for all the 'trash' that had been clotting my mind all these while?

leaving behind those memories....

It takes a minute to find a special person, an hour to appreciate them, a day to love them, but it takes forever to forget them....
the more I wanted to forget, the more i remember. A friend asked, if given a chance, would you like to go back to your 19yrs old? Sweet 19, everyone has it, and me too. In my deep heart, of course, I wish to turn back. But knowing the fact that, it's impossible impossible. Regret is already useless at this point. I know so clearly that I NEED TO MOVE ON. I need to move forward, but past memories just kept gushing back bits by bits that had made my days so doomed.....Can someone just tell me how I can stop those memories from overcasting me? How can I leave behind all these and move on.......???